thoughts: afterthoughts

makes me wonder...if the players blv..lie even when faced with undeniable truths..lie...then.. we can't win..
cuz if you make me pay for sins.. then we both lose. we can't win.
you can't control your women...can't control the sinning.. can't
maybe you woke up with the best of intentions. but.. we all know about intentions..especially good intentions.
what do you really want?
the best of both worlds? the unattainable and the easily trainable?
your rap and your neo soul ..cuz she could never be hip hop
man child in the unpromised land
you never learned...how to love..how to lie.. how to be.. a man.
your still learning..
not yet your age.. in a common sense
your still 15.. maybe 12.. pouting when your women start to shouting..retreating to your first response... but we ain't really no better.
cuz i retreat to 12...when shit gets hard.. want to run and hide and sleep. be left alone..
but i don't really want to be alone.. want someone i care about on my side...so i can sleep with peace at night..
but ... we screwed up... you know about intentions.. especially good intentions..
good girls gone bad...good men gone south...want everything.. can't hold nothing.
want control...want control over things that can't be controlled..want so much.. but we ain't grown like we supposed to...maybe the lack of daddy muck us.. makes us deficient in proper living and loving skills.. maybe..
maybe it's too late.
too many tears falling
too many hearts broken
again..
but you know about intentions
even the best intentions...
go awry...
you mean the best.. but get 2nd best..at best..
but you know..
you mean well.
don't do well.
can't fix the mess at the end of the shit hole..
can't rest..
can't..
but you know.