crying eyes

this won't be the first time i backed away from love
probably wont
be the last
but i
can't seem to find i
in we
us in me
u in family

fool of me?
to let her get to she
to let he in she
to blv?

foolish man
foolish woman
have been fools for love
for better
more worse

my mind has shut down for the season
my heart is hibernating until winter
frozen over in blazing sun
cold hearted ice queen
i used to be warm
sensitive
loving you
can't remember what happened
when i stopped being me
when you became so possessive
when i stopped telling the truth
when you started painting my skies blue
instead of letting me look out the window
can't recall
the details
everythings hazy
like i got shades on and
i can't see
head pounding
stomach knotting
i can't see
my love through the tears
my love through the fears
my love
leaking from my windows
raw remnants of my soul
i cant see
why anymore
why you love me
why i love you
why we changed from happy
to angry. lying . sad.
i cant see
through these crying eyes

(c)2007 Jamila J