my first litany #1

1.
you can cry if you want to
but liquid pain only causes
liquid tracks of past remembrance
and that don't fix what needs to be changed
so cry if you must.
once you reach the end of the line
you'll need to pick your ass up
and move on
crying fixes nothing

2.
he wanted her like hot people want water
on a humid and stuffy oppressively hot day
wanted her like
winter requires warmth for you to make it through
wanted her like
hearts need new stimuli to cover up old pain
wanted

3.
if we pulled anything could happen
the children will learn their lessons after
the fact
laughter is now. pain is temporary
experience last forever
they live in the moment

4.
arms waist legs tight
fixed places
spinning like tops
breathing like stop
reach inside my darkness and take what's yours
tonight it will be easy
tomorrow forgotten
but my kiss will always remember you

5.
my head is still spinning
like you love her
while you love me
an off kilter rhythm
to be heard in my ears
my lungs
my blood
boiling over
and sizzling
like eggs
in skillet
love her

6.
the you, you met when i met you
is not the you i really am
i can be nothing and everything
and nothing again
all what you believe
and nothing you can see
tell me who you want me to be

7.
it's the warm running i wait for
the smooth softness
the hard roughness
the comfort supreme
i wait for 4 letter words
that never come
stop holding back
and release.
(C)2004 jamilaj