Country Boys

You aint seen nothing
If you aint had lovin
From one of them country boys
You aint got a clue
If you don't know what to do
When you see one of them country boys

Tyra-Country Boy

I used to foolishly believe when I was just coming down south from the north that country boys were sweet endearing individuals.. I seriously thought i'd go to Clark Atlanta and meet me a sweet country boy and marry his sweet country ass.. UHM.. well i never got the chance to go to Clark I went to an all girls school but in my travels from GA to VA I've spent time with a few "country boys" and i have to say.. the outlook is not GOOD..

Now, I give Tyra a girl from Va props for a nice catchy song.. and maybe she's had better luck with the country boys in Petersburg, but i live in Richmond.. and the luck on this side of the river ain't that good.

Take for example this evening.. Me in all my genuine niceness and loneliness reached out to an old "friend" someone i hadn't talked to in several months.. Thought it'd be nice just to talk.. Well this country boy took my kindness as a booty call and we ended the convo with dissapointment.. cuz lately.. i've been feeling quite lazy.. I was layed out across the bed intent on rekindling my love affair with the hand written journal, perhaps watch the DVD i coveted and received for Christmas, Mary Poppins and do my durn laundry.. well.. he was quite upset and very pissy, emotional about the whole damn thing.. and im wondering if it's making me more upset that he's acting like a girl or that he is freely able to express how he feels and im not. Like he's acting the way i've felt many times when a guy has rejected me, so your coming to see me.. But it seems so much worse.. Like i never let people see that side of me.. So maybe im losing respect for country boy #1.. cuz.. he's letting his ass show.. and im not asking for it especially after we have a convo where he's telling me he'd really like to work with me on music, but he likes me too much.. uhmm yeah ... don't tell me that and then get mad, cuz i decline to come over b/c you want to be more mature and professional.. DAMMIT.

ok.. Country Boy #2... is a gotdamn liar.. sweet when he wants to be.. but he made it seem a week ago that we were spending too much time together.. Like i was being too clingly in a strickly friends with benefits relationship.. mind you.. i've been going through it.. i needed the shoulder he provided most willingly.. well Country Boy 2 has been MIA all weekend.. and im thinking back to last spring this time.. when i was dumb enough to believe that his cousin was his cousin .... NO.. not his cousin.. he ended up living with the chick.. so uhm.. don't tell me we need space to get ourselves together and disapper on weekends.. i thought of all things we were friends.. at least we used to be .. don't talk to me about communication and then lie to me! HELL no one spends the whole weekend with their boys.. and all i want to do is call his voicemail and ask.. so who is she.. DAMN if you wanted to do that that's all you had to say.. and spare me the details about my feelings.. you've hurt them before.. besides we are just friends right.. so who is she :) ? Seriously.. why lie? i don't get it.. Your a bad playa, playa.. Fool Dont you remember me im the brooklyn chick???.. I've seen better game in 2nd graders .. but we are just friends.. so im no really upset.. im just like damn.. you should pick better stories.. it's all really funny in the end..

so those are just a few stories..
i think i need to stop messing with artistic country boys.. a bunch of sensitive, creative, beings at best.. got me wondering.. why am i feeling needy again? companionship.. i better cultivate the self love again.. cuz this is crazy..