see.. i think im going crazy.. and i dont' know who to talk with this about. Perhaps i should go to the source.. but Im not sure.. My delimma? A girl. I would call her a woman.. But actions call for other terms. A woman would not act like this. My issue.. I don't have any enemies.. Not any i worked well to obtain. But i think now.. i have an issue. I can't even call her an enemy.. just an issue. A bur in my side. Annoying. The long short story.. Chica.. is constantly rude to me. The reason.. Not anything i did, but who i am. Who am i? the friend/homey/lover of a man she wanted in her clutches.. The kicker.. He rejected her. The clincher.. We despite the drama are still friends/homies etc.. The stinger? he told her the reason she could not be with him was b/c she was not me. And im not sure when the waves changed.. cuz chica used to be all up in my face.. telling me her busines.. But she's shady.. with a capital S. Cuz when she pursued my friend.. She knew we were hanging tight. I digress..there are elements here we need not get into.. The key point.. Being the adult i am.. I never confronted her.. It wasn't my place.. I wasn't supposed to know.. But i do.. But i watch people. I feel them out.. and this chick.. is nasty.. I have to come in contact with her on a weekly basis.. and i get terrible service when i see her.. I don't like having people like this in my life.. i usually avoid them.. but this one i can't avoid.. she's there.. So if i can't avoid her.. i'd like my circumstances to be a bit more amicable and conducive to my sanity.. But the situation is MONTHS old.. being the girl she is.. she still harbors something against me. I don't know what.. And this morning i woke up re-enacting a discussion with her in my head.. I want to ask her why she's so nasty to me.. (she doesn't know i know) i just know. when i go to order a drink for me and my friend and she flat out walks away and refuses we have an issue. I can order anything from this chic.. and it will not come for at least an hour. if at all. So i go out of my way now to avoid her.. but i cant..
what am i supposed to do? i would like to ignore her.. but im tired of dealing with the childish attitude.. So what ?. you wanted the man i hang with. I don't believe in man shortages.. and i don't believe this man is mine.. We are friends.. a shoulder to lean on if you will.. and just b/c he tells you your not it.. well.. i have an issue with dude telling her.. that she was not me.. She's not.. and i think it kills her cuz.. 1) i dress bummy 2) i have no attitude 3) i come with no pretense 4) she probably cant' see what it is about me.. and it's not something you can see..
so i think my presence irks the mess out of her.. irks her more that when he comes around.. we are buddy buddy.. But i've NEVER in all my 27 years had to deal with a child like this.. NEVER. not even in high school which makes me believe.. that i am either truly a late bloomer or long overdue for some drama in my life..
so what does a chic do... Write some nasty spoken word about nasty children? confront her and see if we can come to an understanding? continue to avoid each other and act like fools?
pray to the gods and hope for change? I just want my spirit to rest easy.. and to be able to order a meal when i come to the spot without shade..but what the hell.. she's rude to everyone.. why should i be any different?
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