write it down

The general consensus is that 2003 was a crappy year. I had a friend spend half of the year confined, I spent half of the year in a mental hell. What the hell was that? Generally and by nature I am happy person. I smile with ease, my smile causes one of those domino type chain reactions where it's lighting up other people and spreading general joy and mirth. I'm like that.. Call it what you want, my leo nature, my vibe or as my ex called it "My persona" it's there.. (i never liked that word or freak in reference to me.. might have been an early sign!)

So with the '03 being a year of clearing and gearing us all up for the '04... Everyone is wanting more in the 0-4 and i think we are all due.

My year ended GREAT. I met new friends, built other friendships, picked my self up out of the doldrums of a mild depression and found real joy. Did my first chapbook (Captured - $5) did my first tv show, recorded and submitted a tape for Def Poetry, and did not fall in love but met a wonderful compliment.. and I/ we were needing that.

I started a poem phenomenon with my piece " I hate that" and had a hard time understanding why people were loving that and my other piece "The sweetest thing" but uhmm i think i get it now.. cuz i did a sequel and it just seems you gotta be in that "spot" to be able to re-create "magic" as the case may be..

For the 0-4 were making resolutions right? Well i resolve to regain my temple hair.. this is sickening.. i think i wear too many tight ass afropuffs. but i am not serious... The temple hair is a minor issue. I'd really like to 1) Put out a cd this year. I'm working on the concept.. So if anyone has any ideas.. i'm open.. I'm a poet, an aspiring singer/songwriter and i'm sensitive about my shit!

I also plan to do another chapbook. and my goal for that is to find a cheaper way to make them! If anyone has any suggestions for that one hit up my comments for sure!

besides that.. i like the direction my personal relationships are headed in... I'm happy.. all around.. and i'd love to see some change in my financial areas.. but uhmm that comes with time and a raise.. or me busting my ass to do this cd and promote and put it out there on cdbaby and locally and out there period.. so we shall see.. the point is not to make money off it.. Seriously.. i didn't make the first chapbook for the money.. i haven't even touched it.(the money). but so many people have been asking me where the cd is.. i figured.. i'd better get on the ball.. these people obviously know something i'm hiding from myself.. so i better open my eyes..

Yes in the 04.. i'd like to open my eyes to the depth of my talents.. It's like it's nice that i write.. i do it cuz i like it.. but apparently i have a following starting.. i get request at venues.. people come up to me and thank me for saying what they are thinking.. this is more than me just ranting and raving.. i'm affecting other people. and it's kinda cool.. i've finally learned how to accept a compliment.. You smile bright and say thank you.. and i really do appreciate it... it's weird to be thanked for something that you do.. that is part of you.. but it's also nice to know.. people relate and like what you do as well.. so i plan to do more of that... more stuff people like and request and stuff that i also feel and like as well.. cuz if i don't like it.. there is no point.. i think i did the mess out of "I hate that" but everyweek someone else asks for it.. so what i can do??.. I do that damn thang! What else can i do?