it is 4:49pm and i am soooooooo tired. it's ridiculous.. I have not gotten much sleep since Friday.. My last decent nights sleep was last thursday I did the show and came straight home for a change. But Friday.. was wild. had a first date with a new ray of sunshine.. And sleep did not exist in that realm. Saturday.. never took that nap. Got home, took a shower, checked email. Went to the cipher.. And we are a crazy creative bunch. Laughing, joking, playing taboo. Watching Finding Nemo at 5Am!!?!?! waking up at 6 and seeing like 20 people layed out across the rooms.. it was crazy and fun and i love these people. All of them. most of them.... I have never met another group of cool like minded individuals before. it was wild.. so got home at 8am enough time to take a shower eat breakfast and go to church.. I hear the word dedicated and trooper in reference to this feat.. But somehow Simone and I did it.. Prayer time was no good for me.. It gave me an excuse to close my eyes for an extended period of time. A BIG NO NO!!!!!! came home and crashed for 4 hours..
there are some incidences concerning sunday morning that let me know the elements are truly out of wack.. TRULY.. like the appearance of people in odd spaces.. IT was wild.. But nonetheless..i slept well.. got a strange phone call. Mistaken identity.. and then... my brother..
I am such a "nice" big sis.. Appraently feeling sorry for leaving him alone on friday.. i sometime in a state of euphoria and lack of sleep promised him a movie.. so went to see "Radio"
The movie had me laughing, crying, feeling all sorts of emotion. I tihnk Cuba deserves an award for this performance . Fo sho! He played a convicincing character.. i was impressed...
I had good intentions of going home.. but That friday euphoria has been following me for days.. making me act like we don't exist in public and enveloping my seconds and times.. giving me a new perspective.. i love it.. so we im'd till 2am... went to work yesterday.. fine... but me and euphoria met again.. and time does not exist... beautiful things do.. but time does not.. so 3am concludes our talking. and here i am... a new day.. TIRED As shit at 4:57pm.. it's crazy.. but i can't sleep it's Wednesday.. it's Verses tonight.. and ill be out till 12pm at least.. unless euphoria strikes again... lingering me to diners with cocoa and conversation.. so 5pm warrants a dash home and a nap.. and some Chai tea.. it's a blessing that mother works at Starbucks to feed my Chai habit.. God bless her.. :)
we shall talk more about euphoria later.. i cherish the moments to sleep b/c they allow me to process my new state of happy.. and the lack of sleep is nothing.. i'd rather not sleep it cuts down on moments of contact.. but it shall do. if it is needed.. i will take it.. only b/c if i sleep i dream and when i dream the hours pass and when i wake up .. i will be seconds closer to euphoria.. and i need that.. relish it.. love it... want it.. :) have it.. and i am damn happy!
later.. 5:01 beckons.. i'm coming purple vellux blanket.. i'm coming.. :)
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