Patience my dear child, Patience. . .

I was asked today to be patient...
and i thought i had been up till now. . . Till my lonely, dejected (is that a word?!?) needy, goal orienteed side reared her ugly head and decided she wanted time, not yesterday, not after a session, not after a rehersal, not when you felt it was ok, but NOW!!!!! see and it's not often she gets her way, why would this time be any different.. I was also told i have never been with a person like this... A musician.. So there are different rules in this musical chairs universe.. i guess when the music stops.. I might be lucky to be sat on.. otherwise... i get taken out of the round or something.. i am not sure how this works.. but i was asked to be patient... so i decided to look it up to see if i had what it i thought i had what it took ....

Patience noun
1 : the capacity, habit, or fact of being patient
2 chiefly British : SOLITAIRE (solitaire?!?! are they saying patient is lonely!?! WTF!!!?)

pa·tient adjective
Etymology: Middle English pacient, from Middle French, from Latin patient-, patiens, from present participle of pati to suffer; perhaps akin to Greek pEma suffering seeeeeeeee!!!
1 : bearing pains or trials calmly or without complaint
2 : manifesting forbearance under provocation or strain
3 : not hasty or impetuous
4 : steadfast despite opposition, difficulty, or adversity
5 a : able or willing to bear
why does patience/patient sound like torture to me? bearing pains, manifesting forbearance.. Manifested!!!!! isn't that like created?.... to show or display... what the.....
provocation or strain.... steadfast despite opposition, difficulty or adversity..
able or willing to bear..

I think i have been very able and willing up until now, which i guess makes me a failure at patience b/c the definition says steadfast despite difficulty or adversity.. WOW!!
that's asking a lot of someone... please be patient with me... do i need to write out documents and take notes and make records for this.. or will a few songs and poems be enough to document the agonizing moments of patience i have already expended?!?!? huh! cuz i can start writing right NOW!!!!

what do i get in return for my patience.. right now patience feels like torture.. if anyone has a better view on this let me know.. but today, right now!?!?! this is not looking too cool.. b/c though i often do things with no thought of the return in it for me.. in this case.. my heart has suffered, my mind has done cartwheels.. and i want compensation for all the hourse of PATIENCE i have put in and will continue to put in until i can no longer maintain a sense of SANITY under such agonizing conditions.. hah!.. be patient with that... i have been so nice lately.. i'd really hate to see that other side of me emerge... she is not patient.. this can get ugly!