i find it very inetersting.. of late this recent interest in ME. people calling me, wanting me, desiring me and expressing it to me.. It's interesting.. even more when i don't seek it, but when it seeks me.. I didnt know i was in season.. wish i did.. maybe i would have dressed with flowers in my hair.. or wore a different scent.. though my vanilla lace seems to do the trick. i just find it odd at times.. to be called on, wanted, almost seem liked im needed.. i wonder how long it will last.. what scent is in the air? did someone send the memo out that i was a freak yet selective.. and the next one to gain access to my love lair.. would be turned into a millionaire..
Sorry.. i didn't see that memo either.. but it's not true! ;)
My male friends.. who are biased im sure.. tell me it's because im sexy.. when i tell them i don' think of myself as sexy.. that scoff at me.. seemed amazed.. im NOT trying out for sexy.. im trying to walk straight enough so my shoulders don't slump and my stomach doesn't seem too large and my breast don't overshadow the whole realm of my upperbody.. drawing away all the attention from my deep conversation.. haha.. that's funny to write..
but halfway true.. i am conscious of my posture.. conscious of my expressions.. so as to not let anyone know what i REALLY think ;) .. conscious of my body placement.. b/c they didn't call me jinxy for nothin when i was younger! conscious of my breasts.. dont' ask why.. and i don't have a pic either !
somehow.. my me being me... comes off as sexy.. and im not even trying.. amazing.. to me still how people find you more attractive at your most bummiest.. sweats and hair all flipped on the back of my head.. or better yet.. when im not in braids.. when my fro is flat on one side.. i guess i am more approachable then!
but lately.. it's intersting... where i once was lonely.. im receiving a plethora of invitations for rendevouz, stolen moments and the like.. names have been withheld to protect the guilty... im just saying.. im flattered.. i appreciate.. the love.. if that's what it is.. it's just interesting when the one person you want to notice you.. doesn't..
it's intersting when im suspicious... and therefore unable to accept such attention b/c i dont know where it's coming from all of a sudden.. from people i know.. i guess it was there all along.. but in the process.. it's interesting to see how jealous guys can get when they see they are not the only one with designs on making this young gal's body wine.... yeah..
even more interesting to me is my reaction.. i don't accept it. flirt with it.. but don't run with it.. don't know what to do with it.. This is NOT my Leo sun at her height of LEONESS! .. contrary to popular belief we don't all love the attention.. right now.. im trying to figure out why i got it?
sexy? i dont think so.. but that's me..
you can take a look if you wanna.. let me know..:) maybe i'll see it sooner than later!
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