who do i run to?

womanstorm from NC is becoming one of my favorite poets simply because she says what im thinking. She said something i have been pondering for a some time now. Who does the sun go to for light? My old question used to be who rescues superman? But basically, who is there for the person who is always giving to someone else?

so i have good news... GREAT NEWS! and i don't know who to tell it to. The person i used to tell all my stuff too. Well i don't get the same joy from them. Even wonder what their role is in my life after being introduced to a circus of drama... So do i keep this good stuff to myself because maybe i am the only one truly happy about it? I have a great family of friends who fully support me. And lately after relearning what i always knew.. That self love is the greatest love and another woman storm quote follows.. "It shouldn't take someone hurting you for you to learn to love yourself" but it's true.. that's what happened. Right now.. I am really feeling loving me, myself and I. I am really enjoying my company, my humor, my gifts, my time. The only thing you have is love and time.. ;) oh but i know there is so much more.. So having this new great news.. and sharing it with the triune me, myself and i is wonderful. the committee of me is HAPPY, ELATED!

so i guess that is my answer.. who does the sun go to for light? IT goes inside itself. The source is the source for itself, it's self- regenerating. amd quite happy about it. Funny my ex called a week ago and asked if i was still keeping up what my occupation says on my yahoo profile and "being the sun in your cloudy sky" I told him yes.. I know my place in life. I know my purpose. Even thought i wrote a poem called smiling sins.. I know what my purpose is in being joy and helping bring joy to other people. i just know that at times.. i need to be alone to be joy for me. it's that simple.

and my good news.. hell its' my journal.. i'll tell me and the 34 people reading this. I got accepted into Massage Therapy school.... YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)