he said, she said...

today is a day of cliches.
actually it wasn't today.. i just thought about it today..
things like my ex telling me " You don't know what you have until it's gone" and me realizing yet again that there is something interesting going on with my relationship. I don't know what this is a pre-cursor or a warning of. All i know is that now instead of outsiders putting their noses in about if we are together supposed "friends" are adding their 2 cents in and causing discension amongst the people.. Except that.....
this relationship i have established is based on honesty and trust. What is being inserted is heresay and doubt. possibly even lies when what i know to be true is being contrasted with what i know is not.
A dilema? well.. on friday I was depressed for several reasons. this job thing is finally getting to me. Along with the money thing. I don't appreciate being broke except i hear that when you are empty.. it means God can now fill you up.
A friend asked for my word of silence and then proceeded to tell me things that made me see someone close to me in a new light.. the right light? maybe not.. but a new light nonetheless.

the thing is.. when it comes to certain people I am very honest and truthful. to the point that keeping things from them disrupts me to depression. yes... so i unleashed my woes.. only to find out what i knew in the beginning. He said, She said, can kill a relationship no matter how strong you believe it is. and often these people on the outside.. don't really know what they think they know.

the key here.. what i've known before.. go with what you know.. I'm right. You're wrong.

so what does a girl do.. well a weekend with no phone calls and no contact tells me that in the end there is me, myself and I and well the WE the committee.. believe that discenion amongst the people is not a good thing. WE also choose to believe in what we know.. which is more than WE thought.. and more than what the HE saiders, she saiders can contribute.. which is NADA!

what to do, what to do? i'm wandering... my words probably make no sense.. but it's plain.

DON'T EVER LET OUTSIDERS INTO THE INTIMATE FABRIC OF YOUR INTIMATE RELATIONSHIP! ! !
also take what outsiders say with a grain of salt until you confront your source.

I hate when people interject variables i didn't know about therefore redirecting my thoughts of what i know about someone into doubt and suspicion... BAD

but it breaks down to i wonder if i can face these people again knowing what i know about them.. and knowing that each person doesn't know that i know intimate details about all of us.. crazy... knowledge is power.. and somtimes pain. A E I O U and somtimes Y ...