Don't Ask me for SH*%!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok.. So i consider myself to be a reasonably generous and all around nice person.. i do things for people.. that i often hear back later.. others wouldn't do for them...

But the dilemma today is that... i need help now.. and people get mad at me when i don't ask for help. They get mad when they learn i might have had an issue they might have possible had the inclination to help me with.. BUT !!! Asking for help is too much of a bother for me..

1) People act funny when you need help. They want to act all high and mighty or
2) People you have helped willingly in the past are not willing to help you on the rare occasion that you finally ask for help and need it
3) People tend to be unreliable
4)People sigh to much and make a big deal out of going "out of their way" when really all they are going to do is go home buy some McDonald's and sit on their ever increasing American asses
5)People are always quick to point out how wrong you are when you stop helping them
6)People only seem concerned when i stop smiling and start to cry
7) I only cry when I'm past frustrated...
8)PEOPLE are quick to use you up and leave you down and forget to ask about you when shit starts going right for them
9) some people.. Only call you when they need something
10)A lot of people are selfish...

and I'm not saying that at one point or time.. i have not been one of these people.. But I'm just saying.. My ratio of helping to asking for helpings... Is rather high on the left side of the scale and rather uneven in comparison.

Does that make any sense?
I think not..
I just think.. i will be becoming one of those people i mentioned soon when i get back shit back in order and don't need anyone for a little while.. i plan to hide.. and start getting my shit together. ... So if that means i can't help people in monetary means so that at future dates.. my own necessities are taken care of.. Then so be it.. i really don't think you want me out on the street and having to ask for your help or your space..

besides. . . i know people like you.. and you wouldn't offer it anyway.. but sure would feel sorry about me and talk about how bad I'm doing to those other 9 people.. :P