when it all falls down

in the end/ maybe this is a race we should have never started
but afterthoughts come after
we learn the lessons
bear the scars
cry the tears
scream the things that make us think we'll feel better
but maybe
maybe she asked you how many kids you had, not because she was going to run
but b/c maybe she just liked kids
maybe she asked you to use protection, not because she was cheating on you
but b/c maybe she had some things she didn't want to share with you
it's a gift that keeps on giving
way after the screams and the hangups and the misgivings
maybe
he had his reasons for being nonchalant
maybe he wasn't used to a woman with her own thoughts
maybe she wanted to wait to have babies
and couldn't understand the rush to get married and get pregnant
it never made sense
if this was something they wanted...
it'd be something they'd work on
but maybe she couldn't take the other woman
maybe she was hoping things didn't get out of hand
maybe she woulda been cool
if he hadn't lost his cool
if everyone is cheating
why is hand on her throat, faces beating
maybe he blacked out the moment
thinks it's alright and she should get over it
but we don't process things the same
and maybe this is their personal walk of shame
they wanted things to be perfect
wanted things to be easy
but she got too many thoughts
and he's got his own insecurities
and the two need some time
some space to grow and rewind
maybe it will work with time
but when it all falls down
the pieces scatter
and who knows what comes after
after she picks up the pieces of her scattered mind
and he bolsters up his anger as his best defense line
theres a place she carries deep inside
she'll always care
and he'll always care
but they just can't care together.
when things fall
they must put themselves back together...
in their own time

(c) 2008 tiye nayeli