coy (koi)
adj. coy·er, coy·est
1. Tending to avoid people and social situations; reserved.
2. Affectedly and usually flirtatiously shy or modest. See Synonyms at shy1.
3. Annoyingly unwilling to make a commitment.
he says im being coy... and not like the fish in a pond.
I can't explain my non-commitallness (also not a word) but i am. ...ebbing and flowing away from the shores of sanity, rowing myself into a dark and stormy emotional , albeit lonely existence.
the further i keep myself from people. The farther i am from connecting. No science there.
But, the real question to ask ones self is why are you keeping yourself from connecting with people?
When people ask why I'm not married. It's easy to say b/c i haven't met him yet. But, what "if" I have? And by being coy I have potentially backed myself out of the loving arms of a potentially happy future. Coulda, shoulda, woulda. It's more than being a woos and much more than being a scaredy cat and goes much deeper than, "I'm not ready" conversations.
In the end, the ways and means to keeping oneself safe are keeping others mad and upset, disturbed and frustrated. People shouldn't have to go sneaking through your shit in attempts to assertain far reaching answers to one's disapperances. It's not really all that deep. To be honest, I tend to be a hermit. Lock myself up and away. But, it's not about being scared, it's about being unsure or even at times, just not ready. Just not on the same schedule as everyone else. so be it... people don't understand "slow" people. when a man wants to marry you, he wants to marry you now.. how many woman has he really told he wanted to marry and meant that shit?
But cautious,"slow" bloomers, rehash what ifs, when's how's why's....want to carefully trace and prepare steps. If we gon' move slow, we might as well be sure and ready.
So while being coy can be cute at times, can heighten the game. IT's a killer. It's bullshit. After making someone wait 3 years. After,hemming and hawing... you gotta be ready to move on, grow up and be a big kid ..Sometime....how about you figure out when.... Be.. willing to make a commitment and stand on it. stop being coy. that shit ain't cute.
he says im being coy... and not like the fish in a pond.
I can't explain my non-commitallness (also not a word) but i am. ...ebbing and flowing away from the shores of sanity, rowing myself into a dark and stormy emotional , albeit lonely existence.
the further i keep myself from people. The farther i am from connecting. No science there.
But, the real question to ask ones self is why are you keeping yourself from connecting with people?
When people ask why I'm not married. It's easy to say b/c i haven't met him yet. But, what "if" I have? And by being coy I have potentially backed myself out of the loving arms of a potentially happy future. Coulda, shoulda, woulda. It's more than being a woos and much more than being a scaredy cat and goes much deeper than, "I'm not ready" conversations.
In the end, the ways and means to keeping oneself safe are keeping others mad and upset, disturbed and frustrated. People shouldn't have to go sneaking through your shit in attempts to assertain far reaching answers to one's disapperances. It's not really all that deep. To be honest, I tend to be a hermit. Lock myself up and away. But, it's not about being scared, it's about being unsure or even at times, just not ready. Just not on the same schedule as everyone else. so be it... people don't understand "slow" people. when a man wants to marry you, he wants to marry you now.. how many woman has he really told he wanted to marry and meant that shit?
But cautious,"slow" bloomers, rehash what ifs, when's how's why's....want to carefully trace and prepare steps. If we gon' move slow, we might as well be sure and ready.
So while being coy can be cute at times, can heighten the game. IT's a killer. It's bullshit. After making someone wait 3 years. After,hemming and hawing... you gotta be ready to move on, grow up and be a big kid ..Sometime....how about you figure out when.... Be.. willing to make a commitment and stand on it. stop being coy. that shit ain't cute.
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