it's easy to make a mess of things.
at the end of the day i must be the crazy one.
if i have ever defamed your character on this blog. i apologize.
it's my blog. it's bound to be one sided.
what do you do when you have a man who says he's willing to provide the world to you. and you fuck it up?
what do you do when your know to be as flighty as the birds and your mind changes and your views a litle skewed?
do you remain mute? write? run? scream? talk?
what if the words don't flow and nothing makes sense. Do you press the abort button? or make a well thought out decision?
I am at the cross roads. I don't want to be here.
j
3 comments:
Jump ship... There people who will allow you to fly unattended. meaning they will let you go and do you without cautioning you, without helping you go in the right direction. There are those who will let you fly just enough to say they are giving you space to be yourself. There are those who say they don't mind you in flight, but they cannot take the heights you go to. There are those who will fly with you, take the adventure with you. Which one do you want? Which one is he?
Hey sista Jam. I don't think that I can add much more than PhoenixRising did except merely to cosign. I once went out with a woman who would change moods and have a very diverse outlook on life to the point that she would always ask me, how come you don't ask me "why am I this way?" I told her that it didn't matter to me and that "this" was the real you as you appeared to be. Not a psuedo-copy or facsimile thereof. That's the sista I was feeling therefore I had no requests for her to change. Just be you so I know who I was falling for. Cut 'em loose if they don't get you. Harsh of course, but a disservice if he attempts to stay with you and he's not really feeling Jam as you are luv.
it's already been said. do you. if that means being alone until the one who sees you doing you and ain't afraid to be with you when you do you, then so be it.
all that said, i'm at the same place you are. it does indeed suck.
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