but let us talk about a few things.. like.. how i've been up now for almost 24 hours.
my silly as is supposed to be in bed.. what am i doing.. listening to algebra on myspace and writing! WTF.. at least i'm getting a song out of this ish...
lets talk about other things... like how i think i'm being cheated.. i picked up the guitar to assist my songwriting. I had big plans for the new year *wink*wink*
but now i realize.. my teacher has NEVER taught me how to play notes strictly chords.
The cool new thing we are doing is I burned a cd of some of my favorite artist playing acoustically. Bob Marley, Corinne Bailey Rae, India.Arie and a few others....
and he's teaching me how to play these songs.. what did i notice while i fingerd out "Redemption Song"?????? now no spiritual revelation just that.. the song is mainly notes then chords.. so now.. i'm like WOAH! NELLY! Dirrrty if you will.... perhaps i should be learning some single notes so i can step my songwriting game up... i almost feel jipped (is that a word) but all is not lost.. it will all come into place.
**moment of truth** andsomething i've told no one...
my sister... WAS getting married. Dude..flipped said he couldn't do it, said he didn't love her anymore(i thought u nvr stopped luvng!) .. and this asshole waited a week after i bought my nonreturnable dress to change his fucking mind. ahh well..
i think he has somone else.. but who am i? im not allowed to say anything all thought.. i'd like to ruff his arse up.
anyhoo. i realized.. at the point when i knew this whole pomp and circumstance ceremony was no more.. that i had placed some faith in love and that faith was being tested. I really believed that what they had was unique and could work. B/C i didn't understand it. Maybe i still don't know what they really saw in each other. How they knew initally that they were each others ones... cuz after awhile... i placed some faith in the steadfastness and beauty of love in all of my lack of understanding.
Their breakup makes me a bit standoffish and i can't explain it. My "friend" asked me a week after i knew my sisters wedding was off when we were getting married and i couldn't say. I couldn't say i really believed in marriage to begin with and at that moment.. i didn't believe in it at all.
I still haven't given my answer... what is love?
why am i the silly one who made a Jesus Loves Hip Hop Shirt and had it put on special delivery on Zazzle so i could wear it to the dress down easter at church??? :) i can't wait. :) lol
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:) i wore that shirt with pride today.. some older woman looked at me strange like she wanted to burn me and the shirt.. but it's cool. my mom said it was cool and wants her dance kids to get it.. go figure here i go trying to be a rebel.. and i'm starting trends.. darn.. lol..
Okay.... so why am I just stumble across this page??? Wow, now I know I have too much time on my hands. I am sooo sorry to hear about your sis and "He who shall not be named". Luv you girl. Shoot me an email sometime.
Simone
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