This is bad....

This is bad…

I woke up this morning and didn’t know what day it was.  The radio came on. I saw it was 9 something before 9:30 and I got my lethargic ass up to take a shower and go to church!

It was on the toilet that I realized…. That before I decided I needed to go to church, that I was going to go to the gym this AM. It was then I realized... why would I go to the gym before church? On a SUNDAY! Then it hit me.  Yesterday was Friday... I indeed could go to a hair store today to get that hairspray I needed. I didn’t have to go to plan 9 and rummage through the used CD rack for the Nappy Roots CD I now needed because the radio was playing it when I woke up... It’s FREAKING SATURDAY!!!! (Side bar: plan 9 rummaging is a Sunday thing)

And now I can’t go back to sleep… and I’m not yet ready to go to the gym… and I CAN’T GO BACK TO SLEEEEEP. DAMMIT!

So here I am. Did I say I was exhausted last night? I just started going to the gym this week. I haven’t been to a gym in years. I can’t justify it. I’d rather run outside... It’s free. And I won’t waste my money. I can be alone, get my thoughts together and get fit for FREE (the Y is $20). Well, free is also cold. And my happy black ass hasn’t been running like I’m supposed to. Suppose it could explain the unexplainable reason why my left knee has been swollen off and on since Christmas. I think its arthritis. I think it’s because I’ve gained all my pre-10k weight back from last year. ( Not happy I am.

So Tuesday... my black ass couldn’t exercise longer than 10min on the elliptical before I felt like I was going to pass out. And this guy from church was trying to have a conversation with me. I had to excuse myself to find a water fountain. It was BAD. I left went home and slept almost the whole day... dammit!

Thursday, I got my hair done. My friend Kisha is a master loctician, master braider, natural hair stylist over @ B.A.D (Braids and Dreds) here in Richmond. She’s been hounding me to do my hair for over 2 years.  It’s a new year. I figured it was time for an upgrade... and time to throw the notion of having to pay to do my hair out the window along with my free exercise.  I mean I know my estranged lover homey friend ( loves my fro... but uhm... Kisha yelled at me cuz I ruined my hair line. Plus everyone kept asking me if I had cut my hair... and I hadn’t uhmmm...  So for the first time in my life... I’m going to be spending my money and my time in a hair salon this year.

As a result I have two strand twist all over my head... I think it’s nice... all the “people” at work keep trying to touch my head... Can I tell you about grips! When I had locks people used to pull my hair... I was always complaining... “You know that shit HURTS! This IS real hair it’s attached to my scalp! “

Now that I have a fro, people like to pat it and touch it and tell me how soft it is... and my reply... “Yes my dear I know! I cultivate it for softness!” and it’s true. I didn’t spend hours on www.nappturality.com for nothin’!   I have narrowed my experience down to shea butter I make myself, and a hair spray I make from a few squirts of conditioner, some glycerin, maybe some castor oil or wildgrowth hair oil and water... that keeps my hair soft for days... keeps jon bibbs touching my fro every time he comes through the spot amongst a bevy of  others… anyway…

So that’s why I need to go to the hair store. I don’t own any grease or braid spray... so I need to get some to maintain my new styleee... (

Back to the gym... Yesterday, I went to the gym again and faced those behemoth machines and sweated in their metal, shiny, electric faces... and I WON!  I did a circuit of the cardio machines. 20 min on the stair climber, 25 min on the bike (hey I had to cool down () 10 min on the elliptical... (It was supposed to be 20 but I looked up at the clock and my how time had passed... so I made it 10) then I did a round of the upper body circuit.  I then went home and ate grits and eggs... I got a thing for eggs lately...

At work… I was good. I got a salad for dinner. It was good even though my day basically sucked in many mentally stressing ways...

At work... I was exhausted... felt if I had a moment where I didn’t move I would collapse in a deep stupor of extremely peaceful sleep. So I had to keep working. Typing, researching. Oh my God! I came home and fell asleep. Immediately! Now I usually stay up till 3am... I was G O N E! And woke up this morning thinking it was Sunday!!!!

I’m mad I’m awake.. but maybe that means I just need to head out to the gym again.

I’m thinking of doing the Master Cleanser/ Lemonade diet / Fast – it’s supposed to be really good to clean out your system, sickness, jumpstart weight loss.. I’m thinking.. it’s only a 10 day commitment and I have some days to make up from Ramadan.. would this count?

We shall see..

Peace and Serenity,
J