I gotta explain why....?

I gotta explain why I posted Tell Him on my blog a few days ago. A sister friend performer WomanStorm from NC came through the spot on Tuesday for the openmic and requested I sing Tell Him by Lauryn Hill and while I know the song I don’t know the song. So I’m determined to learn it before next week.

But I need to tell her... people are STILL talking about her from last week. She came through and ripped it! Started singing this Lauryn hill song... It’s just like the water; I ain’t felt this way in years…. Oh my…. And then did a piece after it... it was amazing, uplifting, beautiful.

I realize... in my creativity and performing... I’ve been stagnant. I got offered the opportunity to record my pieces... but to me the concept is out the window. Spoken Word CD’s have had their time. IF I was mentally ready and creatively ripe to record a CD it would not be a spoken word only CD. Unless it had a basis, like a group project. But on my single ownness… no. ownness... I’m making up words today... no... If and or when I do a project it’s going to be a spoken word/ soul experience. There are some things my spirit needs to express in song that poetry or spoken word can’t and wont do... but that’s a ‘nother story for ‘nother day... like how the person who offered to help me with my project also offered me a ghostwriting position, or disappeared and takes shit personal..

DO NOT EVER WORK ON A PROJECT WITH YOUR EX!

Which industry rule is that?

Anyhoo…

I don’t know what I need to recharge my writing. I haven’t written a new good piece in a while. Maybe the spot has me stagnant. The psychic urging from people to be performed to. Maybe I’m lacking the need to express. And it’s okay. I shouldn’t apologize for it. Creativity and expression come in cycles.

And perhaps this is just my regeneration/ hibernation/ creating stage. The calm before the storm…

I hope so.

Peace.
J