These are the in bwtn stages

These are the in bwtn stages

My dentist loves me.
I had to go to the dentist again this morning. I cracked one of my fillings. Good job Candy Canes!!! (  I’m not supposed to be eating hard candy on my core buildup. These are the middle stages btwn my root canal and my crown. Money.. damn..

So he wants to know what’s up. I don’t know what to say.
I know when I’ve made a mistake. But I think I also have an issue of wanting things that are not there. Like I know my boyfriend and I decided to take some time so that I could clear up my shit and get it together. But everyday we touch on the subject of us.

It’s prompting some songs in me. I guess this is what I needed. I’ve been reading a lot of my songwriting books. Studying. Thinking. Writing. I really want this to work out. REALLY!  Like I want love and to name my first daughter Aaminah. Like I love pasta. I want to make it as a songwriter in the worst way.

These are the middle stages btwn my break up and my make up. My heart, damn!

I’m thinking of what I need and want in a man. And I think he had it. The only man I’ve met whose intent on starting a life with me for infamy and eternity. That scared me for a while…. But I think it might be what I need. A friend of mine who shall remains nameless.. told me once to take the plunge. Stop being afraid of love. Just do it. And even though her stance has changed. I think she had something there.

Tell him
Lauryn Hill

Yo heh heh tell him it's like uhh you know uhh
Sweet sweet tell him

Let me be patient let me be kind
Make me unselfish without being blind
Though I may suffer I'll envy it not
And endure what comes
Cause he's all that I got and
tell him...

Tell him I need him (yeah)
Tell him I love him (tell him)
And it'll be alright
[Background singing] Telll himmm be alright be alright
Tell him tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
It'll be alright

Now I may have faith to make mountains fall
But if I lack love then I am nothin' at all
I can give away everything I possess
But left without love then I have no happiness
I know I'm imperfect (I know I'm imperfect)
& not without sin (& not without sin)
But now that I'm older all childish things end
and tell him...

Tell him I need him (yeah)
Tell him I love him (tell him)
And it'll be alright
[Background singing] Telll himmm be alright be alright
Tell him tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
It'll be alright

[Bridge]
I'll never be jealous
And I won't be too kind
Cause love is not boastful
Oooh and love is not loud
Tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
Everything's gonna be alright [w/ adlibs]
Oooh oooh yeah yeah aww yeah

Now I may have wisdom and knowledge on Earth
But if I speak wrong then what is it worth?
See what we now know is nothing compared
to the love that was shown when our lives were spared
and tell him...

Tell him I need him (yeah)
Tell him I love him (tell him)
And it'll be alright
[Background singing] Telll himmm be alright be alright
Tell him tell him I need him
Tell him I love him
It'll be alright

peace and serenity.
J.