You feel like my favorite song… familiar and sweet and strong…. J. Williams
Hard to describe to people my inner workings, like how some people see music. I feel it. I once told someone that an Anthony Hamilton song felt good to wake up to. It was comfortable. Not jarring and harsh like some rap can be.. it just was. They looked at me funny. I move through life by my feelings.
I know myself to be an intuitive empathic being. By nature, my course, I feel. Everything. Other people’s emotions, thoughts, love. I feel out rooms when I enter them. Can feel out people’s true intentions. Lies. Truths. I used to be able to see two things and feel which one would be right for me. It’s a knowing. Something you feel inside.
Lately, I’ve been devoid of feeling. Mute of word. It’s not me. It’s kinda scary to not be able to move through life the way I’m used to doing it. But... Perhaps this is change coming.
Either way.. I’ve decided to stop letting the words in my head bear my down. And let this thing I’m going through feel itself out. I feel all kinds of things mostly emotions. Perhaps from not being true to me. And for sometime now I’m not sure what that Truth is. So I’m going to let it be. Let this thing take care of itself. Stop being mean to people. Attempt to stop my destructive course of self sabotage and move in the right direction..
This is what feels right..
For now.
I need to hear E.Badu’s YeYo.. It makes me feel better when I feel like this.. :)
Peace,
J
1 comment:
you feel what others feel, even if you've never experienced it yourself... you allow yourself to go through the emotions of their event, as if your own... you have to remember to expel them from your system though, too many emotions that dont belong to you clutter the emotions you need to feel... release the emotions yours and theirs... meditate and release... i know this because thats where i am/was/will be always... just now learning how to release it....
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