i find today... that what i lack is a serious trust of self....
i have gone to outside sources only to receive the messages i know to be true. I have talked all day to a new friend... only to find... in the end its only me... i am not going to run off with anyone... i dont trust them either!
But i thought it was really sad that i could accept my own thoughts regurgitated back at me, but could not accept them when i first had them. Why doubt?
b/c i fear pain.... and i know that i need to make a clean break.. and i am clinging... in a strange way. i am not the only one clinging.. but the fact remains.. when you start to lack trust in your own thoughts and decisions you have headed to a bad, bad place...
so i'm going to work on that...
and you should to..
cuz you already know i don't have the answers... :P
jw
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