Were you abandoned by the first man in your life??

I was surfing the web, as a girl like me is apt to do and I came across this topic on www.nappturality.com.. interesting to me.. it brought up somethings i've been pondering since my b-friend and I went our seperate ways under the guise of "getting ourselves together".. apart...

here is the quote:
A girl abandoned by the first man in her life forever entertains powerful feelings of being unworthy or incapable of receiving any man's love. ~Whatever Happened To Daddy's Little Girl: The Impact Of Fatherlessness On Black Women, Jonella Rose Barras~

See I hate to blame my past for anything, but this is an interesting subject. B/C my last two relationships ended almost the same way. With me being shut out and ignored.. and I wonder.. is this a replay of an earlier lifetime tape? AM i always to be abandoned and cut off with no contact?? Until these people deem me worthy again? Or is this a choice that I make? To be shut out of people's lives.. OR am I just that intense? that people are unable or unwilling to hurt my feelings to my face that I have to just be cut off and ignored.. see these are the thoughts.. if you go around cutting me off and ignoring me.. (AND I HATE TO BE IGNORED) of course i'm going to wonder... HEY!!! Did you talk to my father? Did he tell you to leave like that? See.. crazy..

No I wasn't abandoned by the first man in my life.. I was abandoned by the last one... will i now be scarred for life? or is that scared for life? hmmmmm