after ...thoughts...216

talk bad if you want
act like you had all the pieces in place
the last # in the soduku just right
the stars aligned and the
letters in place
but we know better
things have been askew from the first
misalignment
ain't been straight since
ain't seen straight since
aint' felt right since
and you know it
but we like to ignore ourselves
push that little voice aside
pretend we know better
you knew
from the first word that stabbed your
tissue paper emotions
from the first pout of your unformed lips
you knew...
you can call it what you want
play victim
roll over
play dead
pretend
ignore
express
emote
cry
tell your friends
whatever truth you choose to spew in their direction
but you knew..
before you knew
that you knew.
so don't act surprised
act like you came over
act like you got mysteries to solve
and shit to figure out
it wasn't hard
cuz it wasn't written
it was emblazoned across the universe
and you can act like you got shit to get over if you want
but u knew
so all you can do
is dust off your shit
blow off your wounds
take stock
and keep
it
moving
...
cuz
you knew
& in the end
you got to answer to you
and your heart
and your thoughts
& your steps
gotta be ordered
to your
spirit
& your
calling
& u
in the end
gotta deal
with u
f
them
in the end
it's
just
you.....

©jjwf