Say What????

So today I must apologize to myself for giving in. As hard as I can be, as un-trusting (not a word), reserved and bricked up behind this wall i can be.. Sometimes it's best to remain a bit secluded.

I thought I could fix some things in my life. But, today I start with learning to forgive me. ME, I'm sorry :(. Really and truly. For putting you through that shit....For making you play nice with looney tunes. I knew better, I knew you didn't deserve to be treated that way and I let you be all golden ruler and what not. Let you be forgiving and kind and accepting and stupid. Stupid is as stupid does. And you my dear cannot fix stupid. But you can prevent yourself from acting foolishly. From falling into the mind games and the trickery.. Girl.. you gotta know when to hold em and know when to walk away... I forgive you for thinking you could change the world. You cannot change the world.. You can only change you.. So go forth. Be happy, be free, be you to the utmost and always be aware of the signs that lead to crazy...

love always..
Me...