i was watching tv with my very close "friend" last night.. when i started re-fliping through his pictures... in the midsts of them were 2 pics of his own.. and i... kept looking at them.. his kids are beautiful... so cute.. i wanted to pinch their cheeks through the picture and run out and buy them things.. beautiful....
so i don't know what really happened.. but we were laying there.. the game was on.. and then.. i started crying.. averted my head around a pillow so he couldn't see me doing it.. and i cried... i wonder if the sniffling tipped him off.. but he asked me if i was okay.. and i said yes..
how the hell do i explain why i was crying? i couldn't even understand it myself.. what the hell? IT's a year toooo late for regrets... too late to make any changes.. and then i start thinking about how i dated a man for a year and a half and never saw his daughter or saw a picture of her.. nothing...
And i can't be crying over his beautiful children.. i'm thinking... it's a thought of a decision i made.. that's bothering me.. i didn't cry back then... why cry now?
-one tough cookie crumbles daily.
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