crazy things

the things we never talk about and think belong just to us. Don't.
When i was kid. I never told anyone that my friends father touched me. Did some things i thought i was making up in my head. I never told anyone..

Today i was searching the web for old friends and came across this mans name.. it turns out.. he's been convicted of doing the same thing to other people's children.

i'm trying to not get stuck in a mental spiral. but i wonder briefly. If i had said something to anyone back then. 1) would they have believed me and 2) could i have helped those girls?

i know i can't torture myself with such questions.. but i wonder.. if only for a moment. this man now has to spend the rest of his life in jail and who knows what those girls are dealing with..

but i still wonder.. what if...