I hate this side of me.. this on the precipice of tears me. Listening to the live John Legend clips on the vspot made me want to cry. Not because they were bad. But because they were true.
My friends response to my last post. Made me cry.
i am tired of crying. but i know im not done yet. i am also. on the verge of pmsing. i hate this.
I'm having issues with this phase of life. i understand change and it's purpose. It doesn't mean i have to like it!
I've been feeling cloudy not clear and unsure. I know i am on the ledge of change. Doesn't mean I'm fine with it. I just know that it's coming.
Ends of relationships. I feel like i opened a door to nowhere. like I've opened my back door and the porch is missing. Like i can't get down and I'm not sure how to make this next step work in my favor. I'd like to make it as painless as possible.
Being scared is a big theme in my life right now. Being scared made me change a relationship. Pressure and change.. i hear it makes diamonds.. it makes me run or move slightly out the way of impeding unknowingness.
i wish so many things.
can i have a music career like conya doss?
can i ever feel my heart again?
when will these moments of confusion leave?
why am i hooked on charmed?
if you love someone and let them go. b/c it's right for the time being. how do you know if they will return?
how do you know if your doing the "right" thing?
which way is up?
since when do people take my blog words as my gospel truth? ESPECIALLY in a relationship.
Dear Future Suitors: Please know all of these words i leave here are NOT all of me.
If clarification is needed, please, please, please, please,please ask me. PLEASE don't assume that these words are the end all be all. They are my words. But PLEASE don't take them as my only words. I write....a lot.
anyhoo. it's monday. it's a new day, a new week. the suns out.
what are we gonna do about it?
when is music going to come back to us. Be real again? Be good again? be about more than just a few sentences of a dance step or food repeated over and over again badly? have substance....again? make us all wanna dance? stop being cookie cutter and be cutting edge? make white people scared and black people innovative? make change? when?
Good Morning World
jjw
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