Melancholy Blue

I did it. It's my fault. I brought up his name in conversation. as a pasing thought. I tried to let it go.. They wouldn't let me. They made me relive the tragic kingdom of our fucked up circus..and since then.. last night.. i've been slightly moody. in a slight funk. I want someone to come along make me forget this stuff and cheer me up. and it's not a matter of i thought i was over you.. but on two seperate occasions someone brought up me being in a relationship.. darn it.. it doesn't exist..

i need new change in a happier direction. This reflection nonsense.. i want to be VERY over it. Cuz i realize.. while i am better off without the last two episodes in my life.. there is nothing on the horizon but plans and possibilities.. and some unknown factor.. some dude, some random negro.. who is going to come along when i think i got my shit straight and throw me for a loop.. until then.. im melancholy blue.. darn it