Dictionary.com/disillusionment

Dictionary.com/disillusionment

this illusionment (disillusionment) this illusion meant?

disillusionment is a friend of mine

severed emotions a dozen a dime

naive a fluke or a test of time/ it only

seems like i get wiser with time/ i swear

im learning to get harder with each crime/

i learn to protect whatever’s left /and ration out

love like water and food from the red cross after

a storm/ it's not simple anymore like wanting to be

loved by you/ it's more like wanting to be understood

by you/ like wanting to grow with you/ like wanting to

understand you too/ it's like that/ i want to get old with you

i want take long ass road trips with you and live out my fanta-

sies/ i want a friend/ a lover/ a diary/ a shoulder/ a lap/ a napkin a

pillow for my past/ and a cushion for my future/ i want make believe

security/ i want to believe you will always be there for me/ i want to

believe you will always care for me/ i want to believe/ so i learn to

accept illusions for my reality/ learn to only see the you ,you show/

to me/ learn not to ask too many questions/ and accept the mo-

ment for what it is/ what's happening now/ and what's happening

today/ i take it as/ the best love i've ever had/ the best joy ive e-

ver known/ the closest seconds to god/ the height of ecstasy

/ the move of mountains/ a glimpse of your soul/ today/ b/c

that's all you give me what else do i have but what i have

today/ what you share today/ tomorrow you may flip the script

and break my heart/ screw up the pattern so it's not anything

i recognize as you or me or love/ but pain.. and in the end

i've known all along. that fairytales don't last for long and my story/

our story/ may not have a happy ending/ i have to be happy with that

and make the best decisions for the moments that i am in them

it's all i can do.. take one illusion at a time..

it's what i've come to expect/ as reality.