when it all comes down to it.. it's me against the world

They said i was a rebellious child becuase i didn't do what they said.
Then i was a reclusive child b/c I didn't want to fight and tuned into myself. Stayed holed up my room with my music, my pen and my pad. They didn't know what to do with me. I was overqualified and underachieving. Talented, but quiet. Bright, but closed. What to do?

something else that comes to my thinking mind. I have a history of angry men in my life.
My stepfather was an angry man who always took his anger out on me. Don't know why. Could never understand it. But he did.
And Xman.. Maybe i just noticed it. But he is also an always angry soul and i wonder why it is about me. That i keep meeting people like this. And i have come to realize. IT is not necessarily me they are angry at but circumstances that involve me.

IS there a light these souls can see that they are trying to dampen? IS my happiness just to much too handle. My internal joy too overflowing. MY personality too much. I wish i knew what it was.. or are they the reflection of my internal anger that i never express.. cuz i don't really like feeling angry!

I do believe that my need to know why may keep me stuck. So i guess i just have to realize.. there will be people like this close to me i my life. and i can be stuck in the pain they give me or move the hell on!