Today I dislike my family, greatly despise my family on the odd moment i will even begin to think that i hate them.. There are some moments where we are all laughing and joking and having a good time together.. But that moment is not this moment.. and that day is not today.. Right now.. They disgust me and i'm sure i do the same for them. Not my entire family, just the immediate characters. Sister, brother.. mainly those two..... I have to admit.. I rather liked being an only child for the 8 years that i was... It was a nice existance.. I also liked living on my own. So why did i move back home!?!?!?!
oh yeah.. to get my stuff together.. My stuff is not together.. it will not get together here and I suggest highly that i jump on the next thing smoking and make it work out there somewhere..I'm waiting for so many conditions to come into play so that i may get my stuff right.. But i realize.. that may never happen. Some key elements need to factor in and the rest can fall in line where it may.
But i could say this is the spirit of life moving around me, ensuring i am uncomfortable and remember my purpose for being here. My purpose was not to live here, but to move on from here.. so i've been here a year... That is a year too long.. almost a year.. and it is time. WAY PAST TIME!!! I should have never returned... and i know why..
because... i do not like my family.. on the odd ocassion we are all laughs and smiles and jokes and kool-aid.. but that is not that moment.. today is not that day.. i knew better b4 i stepped foot in here, it's the main reason i first moved away.. I should have stayed... and next time... i will . FAR AWAY!!!!
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