as in ...
"baby it's not you, it's me..."
it's not me at all...
it's other shit though.. and for now this understanding is carrying me through.. B/C it's been made clear that there is no one else..
just life.. and Life has pushed me out and made it that I am not a top priority..or a priority at all.. but lately.. like the mosquito
a nuisance.. not a nuance.. but a nuisance ...meaning annoying as hell.. especially when i call asking to paid attention to.. cuz.. it doesn't exist this time i want.. and for now.. as sad as it may seem..
i can deal with this ... the way it is.. cuz for awhile i was thinking that i had some major flaw.. a repellent if you will... but that's not true.. i fell in love.. and though i hate the term.. the more i look at it.. it seems like no i didn't glide into love.. i fell into that damn thing.. and i fell in love with a man who doesn't deal well with stress and at the present time has more stress than good sense... so it's not that i dont matter.. cuz i do somewhere low on the totem pole.. but in this world void of joy... there is no time.. for sunshine.. and it helps me cope better when i know..
it's not me!
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