Radio Pipeline: And The Beat Goes On
I thought i'd be depressed, but i'm not, I woke up determined to have a good birthday. Not like this one could compare to last years. But I am easy to please. My mom got me tickets to the Maxwell Concert and i had been waiting to go for like 3-4 years and I thought the concert was sold out so i had given up on it. .Figured i'd go next time. BUT ! Mommy came through.. and that's why i love her and not just b/c she makes spaghetti or gives the children ice cream... :) But that was last year...
So this year, I have no expectations. I just want to be happy. I consider this my new years, I want happy all the time. Even if that seems unreasonable. I have to be happy at least one spot of the day.... I want to accomplish some things this year, so next Aug 12. I'm not wallowing about how close to 30 I am and how I'm not married, have no degree, no career and no direction.. :P Cuz i have some great friends and a great mother and sister who all let me know what a great person I was and what a gift my presence and my talents are.. So!!!! I'm happy.. REALLY! so happy i sprouted tears of joy when i read my mom's card.. I think i'm getting more sensitive with age.. Which sucks.. cuz crying is messy. HA!
But it's not that bad.. I guess this would be a good time to finish that Mass Comm/PR degree and get that minor in writing i've been talking about.. and focus on my poetry and my songwriting.. Can't complain if i'm actually working towards something. Besides.. I know people doing things, so i can't act like the reason i'm not doing anything is because i don't know who to go to.. For god's sake my friend who happens to be a boy and who happens to be a jackass on occasion (yeah if you read back you'll read about him) he's a producer.. Those darn musicians.. But the fact is.. just b/c i can't play a tune, doesn't mean he can't take the melodies floating in my head when i wake up or go through my day and make it work for me, so everyone else can hear it too.. ;) See.. this is the mind of a girl who doesn't want to be depressed next birthday cuz she doesn't have a song written or a chapbook made or a cd circulating.. I have a mission!!!! :) And a worthwhile goal for my year besides losing weight and being good to me.. I am good to me
I got myself a strawberry shortcake a personal one from Ukrop's and some Pepsi Vanilla it's my birthday gift to me.. NOTE!!!! I love Strawberry Shortcake... with whipped cream icing.. be aware next year ! I also plan to get a pedicure can you believe i am this old and never had one.. blasphemy.. and I think i'll get something else... cuz i make it a point to get myself a gift ever since I turned 16.. soo... i haven't decided yet.. but we have till the end of the month.. Me, myself and I that is.. ;) Hope you kids are behaving yourself.. and ohh..
I haven't heard from my father in eons.. but this morning i get to work and the first email i see.... is from him.. crazy... what else will happen today????... The only thing that would make me scream is if my friend boy called me.. cuz aren't i too old for boyfriends now and to call him my man. .well he isn't in my good graces like that .. so.. my friend.. boy.. if he proposed to me.. i think.. i'd fall out.. cuz that.. that would be too weird for common sense to comprehend.. but the fact remains that is the only thing that would make this day really, really, really, crazy.. but i know it's NOT going to happen.. so... Off to Verses we go... and i am not getting on stage so there :P !
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