i have decided

not to follow Jesus... but to start working on my book...
I dont know if I want to just do a chapbook or something a little bit longer. But it occured to me on tuesday.. That i was REALLY hamming it up on stage.. I felt so comfortable, I was spreading all my business, communicating with the crowd, taking requests.. and that is the part that got me..

People were asking me to do certain poems.. and i even said that i didn't know why people liked certain ones but if it touched them then i knew i was doing something right..

and later on, I was sitting at the table chilling probably still starving, waiting for my dinner to arrive and a girl walked across the room and asked me if the poem i had done (again but by request) "I hate that", if i had it typed out b/c she wanted a copy... I'm like wow.. No.. for the first time this is the first poem i don't have typed out.. But i told her i'd do it and bring her one next tuesday.. it dawns on me that this being the first poem i have ever done sans paper that i never intended to type it out.. thus the written copy.. which i was not going to give away..

So after the girl walked away... I thought wow.. I've had 3 or so request tonight for poems.. People are asking me to do certain pieces and come up and ask me for copies.. THat's when bells and whistles went off and some big guy with a microphone came out with paparazzi and streamers...

ok.. not really.. just the light went on.. and i've decided that the 3 or 4 pieces people have asked me to do.. i'll include those in my book and look through my other stacks (about 300 poems) to see which ones i want to include in a book or chapbook.. we shall see.

and for adding water to my seed.. i must say.. THANK YOU NAZ!!! i know you read this.. but i must say.. your excitement and support is just beautiful.. :)