u ever open up your eyes and finally see
what you've been waiting for
waiting for you
right there close to you
all the time
right there
ever
wait so long
you feal u missed it
so u go back
try to find it
only to find it
waiting for u
right there
waiting
ever
try
& miss
cry &
wish
scream &
hit
fight it
release
&
let go
move on
& see growth
learn
know
u
ever
?
Loss of us, predicated by loss of me
ReplyDeleteFunny how the outcome was the original problem
I needed to be me wholly with you
not just for moments of clarity
but always and in all ways
but you couldn't tell the difference
maybe you didn't care to
did you even meet the real me?
I thought I knew you
thought I found a kindred spirit
wished it were true
the end proved you weren't who you claimed to be
and I'm in a state of confusion
wondering where the last two years went and who I spent them with
having me around
may have been to fill a void
make full use of my child bearing attributes
Procreation was a thought we had
but we couldn't create a solid us
we'd be creating the best and worst of us
dooming them to repeat we
some days you were all I wanted
some days all I wanted was out
trying to figure this out
trying to shed the layers of hurt
discard the guilt
but you make it impossible to rid myself of you
got u on blast in my head
screaming that I'm a heartless bitch
funny how you never encountered my heart and have so much to say about it
love can't guarantee success in anything
as you can see we proved it
hope you can shake the thoughts of me running around in your head
I need a soul cleanse...
a true and utter rebirth
reintroduction to self
thank you for being the catalyst in the reincarnation of me
needed that...